Drawing In Closer
Lately, there are days in which I find myself at a total loss for words. I just don’t know what to say about the colossal mess that has befallen our country. I’ve been called “whiny”, “snowflake”, “libtard”, “blind”, “stupid”, “socialist”, and my personal favorite from last week, “crybaby c*nt”.
On the flip side, I have not found myself at a loss for emotions. There’s been the rage when I see blatant racism and bigotry embraced by not only Trump supporters, but even the so-called-president himself.There’s the helplessness when I see innocent people victimized. There’s the exhaustion when example after example of narcissism, willful disregard for the laws of this country, and even treason are presented and those who could stop it turn a blind eye. There’s the heartache knowing that even if we can recover from this, the road ahead for the younger generation is going to be perilous for those who fight for civil rights. The progress we had made is systematically being unraveled. And yes, there’s also those welcome respites of hilarity when people manage to bring humor to dire circumstances. Alec Baldwin, Melissa McCarthy, and Katie McKinnon are brilliant, and we will rely heavily on them for that relief.
Depression and spiritual exhaustion levels are rising quickly. I can feel it within myself, and I can see it in others. For me, I have my own methods of bringing my soul back into balance. But when I try to balance myself within my world, it can be more difficult.
So I’ve decided to focus a little more on the immediate vicinity for a time, just until I regain my own strength, my own force of will to keep fighting. Because make no mistake — we will never stop fighting. #wewillrise But we also need to take a cue from the animal world now and again. When a flock of birds is traveling in that iconic V formation, they will switch places when the lead bird gets tired. They cycle through to give everyone a chance to shine and everyone a chance to rest. This way their pace is steady, and no one burns out.
I’ve made more of an effort to be understanding. I’ve done small, but nice things for people unexpectedly. I’ve helped people through my art when I have the opportunity to do so. I’ve focused on some self-care methods that work for me. I’m taking a desperately needed break this weekend to see a new city, spend time with the Musician and the Photographer, two of the people I love most in this world.
And perhaps most importantly, I’ve sought out like minded people with which to fly in formation. To them, I offer my profound gratitude for letting me fall back a little and my promise that I’ll be ready to take over so someone else can rest soon.